Eminem at recovery meeting in When I’m Gone

Eminem‘s music video, ‘When I’m Gone’, was released in December 2005 by Interscope Records, to build a profile for his album, ‘Curtain Call – The Hits’ and give closure to the fans and media who have followed his work since the 1997 debut with ‘My Name Is”. The video was shot after Marshall Mathers had been hospitalized and subsequently entered rehab for abuse of sleep medication pills.

Eminem shares at recovery meeting


The video opens with Eminem in a Narcotics Anonymous meeting. A guy talks about his experience of the group. “I remember the first time I came here. It’s been a rought six years. And I’m just happy to not be that person anymore. And so is my wife. Thankyou for letting me do this. That’s all I have to share right now.” Members applaud. The group moderator asks if anyone else would like to share their story. Eminem steps up to the podium, choosing not to use the microphone. He introduces himself by saying “My name’s Marshal” to the group. “Hi Marshall!” Eminem then begins performing the lyrics to the song (see below). Shots of Eminem performing at the NA meeting are mixed with the story he’s telling about his estrangement from his family because of his need to pursue his rapping career. Click on the image below to play the video in YouTube (HD)

From the rOOm press release in early December:

The music video illustrates one of the dreams that Eminem says led to his revelation that he needed to leave behind his life as a rapper. In the dream, Eminem’s daughter Hailie stacks boxes up so that he can’t leave the house. Eminem tries to explain to her that he has to go perform and she gives him a locket with a picture of her inside. Eminem is then startled to find that he’s alone in a room looking into a mirror holding the locket. As he swears that from then on he’ll show his family that he loves them, he opens the door to leave his bedroom and finds himself dressed in a suit with a microphone in hand, back to performing in front of a crowd. Eminem then spots Hailie in the crowd and she accuses him of lying to her since he said he wouldn’t leave. Hailie throws on stage a “#1 Dad” coin that she got for him then says to stay on the stage since he obviously loves his fans more than his family. Eminem then walks backstage and looks into a mirror with his wife Kim and Hailie in it, only for the camera to rotate around and show the brunette Eminem staring back at the blonde Eminem in the suit. Eminem then wakes up from the dream and we see him go up to Kim and kiss her as Hailie finally seems to have what she wanted. The video closes with Eminem back at the NA meeting, thanking the group for allowing him to share his story with them, speaking to the rest of the NA group as much as he is to all of his fans viewing the video. Eminem then leaves the microphone behind and rejoins the rest of the crowd as they applaud.

Production Details

The music video was shot in Detroit by director Anthony Mandler via Box Fresh Pictures, Los Angeles, with executive producer Lou Miguel, producer Tracy Zuko and director of photography Eric Larson.

Postproduction and audio post was done at rOOm, Los Angeles, by editor Jeff Selis, assistant editors Gizmo Rivera & George Olivo, effects artist Bill Pollock, sound designer and mixer Brandon Toh, music producer Robin Nixon, producer Jason Barager and sound engineer/mixer Brandon Toh.

Visual Effects were done at Worlds Away, New York. Online editing was done at Company 3, Santa Monica, California.

The single, “When I’m Gone”, includes the video. When I’m Gone – Eminem Music Video on iTunes

Lyrics to When I’m Gone

Yeah…It’s my life…My own words I guess…

Verse 1
Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they’re your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?W
hat happens when you become the main source of her pain?

“Daddy look what I made”,
Dad’s gotta go catch a plane
“Daddy where’s Mommy? I can’t find Mommy where is she?
“I don’t know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy’s busy

Eminem Curtain Call CD at Amazon.comDaddy’s writing a song, this song ain’t gonna write itself
I’ll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who’s a spitting image of her

That’s Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady’s crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady’s rocka-by-baby…

Chorus
And when I’m gone, just carry on, don’t mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I’m looking down on you smiling
And I didn’t feel a thing, So baby don’t feel my pain
Just smile backAnd when I’m gone, just carry on, don’t mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I’m looking down on you smiling
And I didn’t feel a thing, So baby don’t feel my pain
Just smile back…

Verse 2
I keep having this dream, I’m pushin’ Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don’t want me to sing
“You’re making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?
“Baby, Daddy ain’t leaving no more,
“Daddy you’re lying”
You always say that, you always say this is the last time
“But you ain’t leaving no more, Daddy you’re mine”
She’s piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
“Daddy please, Daddy don’t leave, Daddy – no stop it!”
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It’s got a picture,
“this’ll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha’”
I look up, it’s just me standing in the mirror
These f**kin’ walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear ‘em
They’re saying “You’ve got one more chance to do right” – and it’s tonight
Now go out there and show that you love ‘em before it’s too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It’s turns to a stage, they’re gone, and this spotlight is on
And I’m singing…

Chorus

Verse 3
Eminem When I'm Gone Single CD includes video Sixty thousand people,
all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they’re throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They’re screaming so loud,
I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don’t believe what I’m seeing
“Daddy it’s me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,”
But baby we’re in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?”
I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren’t leavin’
“You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad”
And I bought you this coin, it says ‘Number One Dad’
“That’s all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin”
I get the point – fine, me and Mommy are going”
But baby wait, “it’s too late Dad, you made the choice”
Now go out there and show ‘em that you love ‘em more than us

“That’s what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin’ your name
It’s no wonder you can’t go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn’t see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream “die Shady” and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes,
the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That’s when I wake up, alarm clock’s ringin’, there’s birds singin’
It’s Spring and Hailie’s outside swinging,
I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

Chorus/Outro

Curtains closing and sounds of footsteps

  • alysa

    hey!! :-) i love eminem!! <333 he is da best!! <3333

  • ***(( sarah))***

    eminem you are the best i love you. and your baby hailie she is a good panama ama a marshall god bless you and your family

  • sarah from panama

    hailie :-) hello marshall :-) hello love you are

  • Lindsey from ohio

    this is a great song i absolutly LOVE it and it makes me happy every time i hear it! i love you Eminem!!

  • Lindsey Bond

    I LOVE U EMINEM!!!! you are the best rapper in the world and you always rock my f##kin world! i love ya babe!!!
    Luv alwayz– Lindsey

  • eman

    woooooooooooooooooooooow i adour u EMINEM..
    i love u
    i love u
    i love u

  • http://www.myspace.com Ashley Davis

    Eminem ur the koolest rapper that I like. I hope that u never quit doing what u love to do.

  • from georgia

    He’s 1 tough guy… He’s cool repper
    be self man

  • Mona

    good

  • DANNI

    THIIISSSSSSSSSS song is AWWESSOMMEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! i lov it M8 ps Aussie’ss are sickk as…. xoxoxo

  • Kamilla

    Hi Eminem i don t love you i just like your songs are you a frind of 50 cent ? And wahat is your real name? Well bey the.

    PS: take more time with Hailie and your family if you like that s my
    e-mail kamilla.erlenbusch@yahoo.de

    • daniel

      his real name is marshal bruce mathers

  • grifa

    el puto amo sige asi emieneM k puto crak

  • bobby Giroux

    dude dont comment on the actors in the video (besides eminem) thats not evn his real duaghter guys… thats just an actor named kassidy circa, i would no , she went to my school,

    • daniel

      hey giroux your mom went to my school gigle gigle

  • STEPH (CANADA WOO)

    EMINEM WOOOOOOOOOO >:]

  • $0 CoOl

    I think its the best song everrrrrr and it totaly rocksssssss i love halie and eminem i hope they become really close in life lov yas aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllll

    sincreely:

    No UuU DidNt

  • 2 pretty 2 c 2 hard 2 catch

    You suck $0 COOL AND nO UuU DidNt i lov eminem and he is all MINE MINE lol

  • roger mtz

    i like your daugter she look
    so prety:L:D:)

  • EMINEM FUCKING ROX!!!!

    Hey slim man youhave excellent songs and my new fave is we made you oh and btw YAY YOUR BACK YOU FUCKING ROK!!! well anyway praise u bro g2g cyaaaa

    ps: keep the songs coming!

  • Joseph Duggan

    hi marshall, i love all your songs they are so deep and moving, i love all your songs but my favourites are Lose Yourself, Cleaning Out My Closet, When Im Gone, Mockingbird, Till I Collapse, Sing For The Moment, Hailie’s Song
    anyways i love you man
    your the best rapper in the world your my role model

    EMINEM FOR EVER

  • renee

    I love u eminem I listen to your songs everyday your the best rapper.

  • kellie

    wELL ITHINK THAT UYOU ARE A GOOD SINGER I LOVE YOU!YOU ARE COOL I LOVE YOU 3<

  • EMINEM ROX

    I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!

  • Patience

    I love you eminem you r fricken HOT!!!!!!!!!
    i love all your albums especially the new one “Relapse”!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Jordan

    Eminem, i love you so much! “When Im Gone” is just like mine and my dad’s life. I even look like Hailie in the video. I’m only 10. My dad says this song reminds him of me.. I LOVE YOU EMINEM!!! :)

  • MARTA

    te amo EMINEM…
    eu e todo o brasil

  • ayu

    hey slim u r bst bst bst ever>>> love u man… u rock n keep rocking.. nd hailie is jst gud lukin lik u……..

  • ayu

    eminem… love u dude
    i listn ur songs evryday.. i love each n evry songs of urs…….. keep rocking man

  • parul

    oh……………emi!!!!!! BABY U R A ROCKSTAR……. n EVRY BDY WNTS U…… my lyf z rckng n crdt gos 2 u>>> LVVV U MAN…

  • leticia

    yooooo eminem i love yu nd all of yur song….. yu totally rock nd hailie is juss so cute lik totally da bomb diggity lol well keep rockin peace

  • http://www.eminem.com/ Marshal Mathers (aka. Eminem)

    thanks guys. I personally feel this was one of my best songs. yo just remember to keep it real and remember that family should always come first

  • genesis

    everytime i hear this song it makes me cry because when i was little he left me and i never got to see him until this year and the one time i spoke to him he was in jail and he said he will always be with me and remember ill always be there with you. its a good song btw.

  • Tedy

    I listen this song and the other Mockingbird and i listen you from romania and you are the best and god bless you and your family man and take care of your family and kid’s becous thei are the mowst beutiful thing in this life..our kid’s thei are all 4 uss, bye 4 now. Tedy

  • Jose Maria

    Awesome song. It’s really beautiful.

    By the way, who is the guy speaking at the beginning of the video? I think I recognize him from some show…

  • http://yahoo gabriel mock

    hey eminem u r my idol i hope that u keep rapping till da day u day u r da best rapper in da damn world and is your original hair color brown the only rapper that is even close to u is maybe cent.

  • kaylaSmile

    i likk all your songs i wish i could b a singer but it seems scary u know everybodys eyes lookin at u.. Likk in 8mile u jus froze up prbly wat id do but i dont wanna b likk urybody else jus wanna craw all over u cuz it muss b anoying sometimes but i doo like ur songs alot and u have one of the best personality in summ of ur songs kinda reminds me of mine………